Deep breath in... Long breath out...

Its hot here, way so very hot..

My central air is not wrking and the landlord is .. well lets not say mean words now, I will just think them, but you know what I mean. Anyway she won't get it fixed, and here I thought that it was the landlords responsibility to fix these things, becasue in the province I live in, if you are a renter, companys will not come fix anything without the landlords permission, she won't give it and they won't come.. Possibly dosen't help that she is drunk all the time either!.. GRRRRRR.

Been almost a year since my ex and I split.. do I miss her, yeppers, I miss her so much.. do we talk.. sometimes, but its ntohing like it was. She has her best friend, whom I am not fond of, but I never went and told her she shouldn't talk to her or hang out with her or anything of the sort.. thats not the kinda person I am and I would nto do that.. But the best friend does that and it got to much to hear all the time, that her best friend didn't like me, jealouse?.. possibly, she will not say it was so, but everyone knew it, because the best friend liked to control her and still does, but had a hard time doing that with me around..

I say if she wants or needs me for anyting then I am here, I have never left and I have never given up on her.. I shall always be here.. I love her, and that will never change even if we will never be togeather again. And we won't be togeather again.

I have lots in my head, things that I can not get out and things that I can not talk to anyone about.. Things that i have tried to talk about before and i get looked at like I'm an idiot, so I tend to just let it all go.. Its been so long that I have been spanked, that I am sure I forget what one is like.. Oh theres been one spanker, sort of.. I'll call him 'khaine'.. he is amazing, love him more than I've ever love anyone before, or will ever. Has he spanked me?.. sure playful spanks.. I think he may be scared of hurting me, not saying the playful is bad, 'cause hello!, so not! *ahem..blushes*. But I am saying I wish he would sooooooooo just spank non-playfully sometime, it sure would help and since I feel comfortable with him and trust him more than anyone else ever.. it would be a good thing for him to spank me non-playfully.

Do I feel comfortalbe writing this here?.. I am not sure yet, I mean its not like anyone actually follows this blog, atleast no one shows on my blog as following, and only one person had ever comment on anything I've written.. I suppose ti can not hurt, I suppose I dont' really care if anyone reads this.. I needed to put it down and so I did it here, just means that its something, a little something that is NOT floating around in my head anymore and THAT is a good thing.

-Kitten

(whos spellign sucks bad, i'm sorry)

Yesterday....

Yesterday was Friday...

Yesterday I finally got my ass in gear and went and wrote my drivers exam..

I passed..

YAY ME! *claps*..

I drove home from the drivers exam office as well, see here where I live, we have what is called a graduated liscenceing system.. so basically i jsut wrote for and got my G1, which means for the next year i have to drive with another driver who has had their liecence for 4 or more years.. then when I take my road test in a year and if I pass that, I get my G2 and i can for the next year drive around WITHOUT another driver beside me. then when the second year is up, I will have my full G liscence.

I dunno what our government was thinking, becasue honestly there jerks.. but thats a whole 'nother story..lol ... But I think that if you are over the age of 25 then you should be allowed to do your exam and drivers road test all on the same day and if you apss both you get your FULL liscence... this graduated stuff is crap, I can see why its good for teenagers jsut starting otu, but honestly, when your 25 or older, it sucks..

But even so I am happy, very happy and I can legally drive now! WOOHOOOO!!!

YAY ME! *giggles*

Maggie and Jason - In The Garden

Please be advised that this Story has SEX in it, if this bothers you or you justt don't like it then I gotta ask why are ya still reading.. maybe ya should be going to check something else out.. but you have been warned and this story is definatly NC-17 RATED so if your NOT of age then please go.

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In The Garden

another Maggie and Jason Story

Maggie write Jason a Letter describing her Deepest Fantasy.

My Dearest jason,

The trees were different colors..oranges, reds, browns, yellows..greens, it was a cool crisp clear fall day.. and I had been working in the garden, in the backyard of our house for a few hours now..

There were no fences to define whose propery was whose..and the neighbourhood kids would come and go as they pleased..playing in the expance that seemed to fill the lands behind the houses.. Finally done weeding.. I stood up only to be suprised by your hand coming up from behind me and snaking there way up my shirt..finding my breasts..

" Jason.. not out here..people will see"

I tried to turn around but was stopped by your body pushing up against me.. i quickly glanced around..noticing that the neighbour were..beginning to barbeque..

" yes Maggie...out here" you said as your hands pushed my bra up and let my breast fall free of there enclosure.. my nipples becoming erect with your touch..

" Jason.. the neighbours..lets go inside..please" I began to plead with you..still glancing every now and then toward the neighbours..

Your one hand begins to make its way down the front of my skirt..I quickly grab your hand to stop you...

" Please Jason..lets just go inside"

I was pleading again..I was very nervous..you stop caressing my breasts.. and grab my hands off of yours..keeping them held securly against my stomach..

" NO Maggie... I am going to make love to you out here..in the garden" your hand slips into my skirt.finding that I have no panties on..you smile as your fingers find my clit..you begin to softly rub..

"No panties.. i think you were wishing to have this happen..hmmm.." I catch my breath as your hands begins to work there magic...I shake my head no..and you chuckle..as you begin to kiss my neck..peppering it lightly..

I glance around again..noting that the neighbours for the moment seemed to be to busy to notice..or did they and just ignored it...

" Jason i really think we should go in the house..I.."

I was cut off in mid sentence when you turned me around abruptly..putting a finger to my lips..

" Hush.. I don't want to here any more" you said firmly..

I looked at you and nodded..you leaned into kiss me..slowly moving me over to the garden bench..slowly beginning to to unbutton my blouse..

I bring my hands up to stop you again.." jason..I " you look at me..pulling your hands from mine and putting my hands to my side..

"Maggie..Hush..Now" as you continue to unbutton my blouse..

I can feel my face become flushed as you slowly pull my shirt from my shoulders..letting it fall to the ground...I glance around again.. and you quickly pull my face toward you.

." Just us Maggie.. theres noone else here..just us"..

smiling you kiss me.. I can feel my heart begin to beat faster.. I kiss back wishing I knew if anyone was watching..feeling a slight tingle between my thighs at the prospect that someone may be watching.....

Your hands move to unhook my bra..and it as well falls to the ground.. I am feeling more exposed..as your hands begin to roam my body.. my face flushes more.. it beomes redder..and I gasp as i feel your mouth take in one of my breast..

I moan a little still cautious to the fact that someone might be watching..not wanting to attract attention....your hands have now begun to pull at the zipper on my skirt..I begin to bring my hands up to stop you and protest..but am stoped by a sharp smack to my bottom..putting my hands back down..you mutter around the breast still in your mouth..

" thats better".....

My skirt falls to the ground and I am fully naked now..moving your kisses back up to my mouth.. your hand finds my special spot and I am at that point lost in the moment..not careing if anyone is watching or not..

I bring my hands up to caress your chest.. and unbutton you shirt..letting it fall to the ground..still kissing..my hands move down now to your pants and I proceed to pull them down..lettinig my body move down with them..

I look up at you and smile..letting my tongue caressess the length of your cock..i can hear you moan as I finally take you into my mouth..beginning to suck..pulling you all the way out till the tip of your cock is just resting on my lips..

Then taking you all the way in..feeling you hit the back of my throat.. you bring your hand to my head and gently begin to run your fingers through my hair..grasping a handfull as I begin to find a rythym..you helping me along..faster I get still..in..out...in..out.. sucking and tesing with my tongue..

my hand comes up to play with your balls gently running my nails over them..finding your asshole I lighty caress..moving my finger in litle circles around the tight opening... I feel you begin to tense..and I suck harder..faster..taking you in till there is no more..Hearing you moan Loudly as your cream fills my mouth and throat..not stoping untill you are done .

Pulling me up to you.. you kiss me.. your tongue penetrates my lips as you tease.. I am acutely aware again of where we are.. trying to glance around your hands hold my head in place as we kiss... stopping for a moment you look at me and smile..

" Just you and me..no one else" you remind me..

your hand now slips down to my wet pussy.. you smile..

" you are wet.. this turns you on..hmmm?".. I look away.. my face becoming a blush..as your finger slips between my velet lips.. I gasp and shift a little under your touch...

" Jason..um..oh..um..we..mmm..should..um... go inside..mmmm..please" I say to you between moans and purrs..

getting close to my ear you whisper..

" Not yet Kitten..turn around over the Bench"..

I jerk my head to look at you..my expression saying it all. you give me the LOOK..and turn me around yourself..pushing me face down over the back of the garden bench..

"jason..not here" And I knew I shouln't of said it the moment I felt the hard Slap Slap Slap Slap ..I startled a bit..and turned to look at you..

" Hush" was all you said as your fingers found my secret places.

Leaning over me you begin to kiss my back all the way up to my neck..biting hard as your fingers move in and out of me.. I begin to moan Lightly..as I feel my orgasm ready to come..

moving behind me you place your throbbing cock at my entrance.. and thrust in.. I gasp as you fill me completely..your hand snakes around to my clit as you thrust you are teasing my little knub..slowly at first..the gradually getting faster..

I feel your finger against my tight rosebud..slipping in..gently moving around..making me more wet..then another finger gently slides in and I close my eyes at the sensation.

Your still thrusting in to me..my juices coating your cock..removing your fingers..you thrust one last time..before pulling out all the way.. and plunging your hard cock into my tight rosebud..causing me to squeel and moan..

I grip the bench tighter...as you begin your rythym..Its not long till you feel me clench my musacles around you as my breathing becomes shallow..my hand has slipped down to my clit and I am rubbing and caressing it.. a few more thrusts and we are both cumming..moaning loudly..as you cum inside me..my juices dripping from between my legs..

Basking in the moment for several minutes before you pull out...pulling me up to you... you kiss me hard and deep..my face flushed still.. I cling to you tightly..you stoop down to gather our cloths..and we walk into the house..not caring who saw us........

Love

your kitten

XOXOXOXOXO

Punishing Her

She stood in the cornor, skirt tacked up in the back of her black leather belt, her red lace panties with the black skulls on them were down around her ankels, her thighs dripping.

She knew this was punishment, she knew it was going to hurt, hell she reveled in a certin amount of pain and pleasure mixed. But this, this was just all pain and she knew it, knew it all to well although it had been months since she found herself in this position, nose pressed against the wall and her ass on display for everyone to see..

Ok so everyone may be an exaggeration, there was only one and she could feel his presence in the room. She could feel his eyes on her, specifically on her bare ass. She wondered what he was going to punish her with, she had been particularly naughty this time.

Ok so naughty was the wrong word, she was bad, he had said as much in her lab after she had gotten back and Ducky fixed up the cut on her head. He called her a bad girl, signed it to her actually becasue Tim and Tony had been hovering over her. He told her she would be punished, of course this was after he had made sure that she was not hurt more than she already was.

There were some things she knew. She knew she was bad, she knew this was punishment, she KNOWS he is pissed. What she didn't know was why she was so turned on, none of this was for pleasure, there would be pain. Alright she knew that, knew that for sure, and she shifted slightly in her stance and whimpered to herself quietly.

He sat in the large leather desk chair, his eyes on her, on his very bad little girl. He had been trying to calm himself down, and the only way for him to do that was to put her in the cornor like the bad little girl she was. She hated the cornor, he knew this, but he sure as hell didn't care at this moment, and she could damn well deal with it, he only reserved the cornor for her, when she was really really bad, or when she needed to be calmed down ALOT.

She had scared him, running off alone to follow a lead she had uncovered from the evidence she had been running. She knew better, she knew NOT to ever go anywhere like that, she was a scientist, not an agent. Oh yes she had tried to explain to him on the way home why she'd gone, but it wasn't washing with him at all. He had told her to be quiet.

He loved her more than life itself and he wasn't about to stand aside and let her bad choices get her hurt like today or possibly killed, that wasn't his style. He knew that if it wasn't for DiNozzo, that cut on her head would have been the least of her worries. He knew what had to be done, he couldn't let this go, not at all, and he wasn't about to.

He shook his head, his eyes still on her in the cornor. he needed to thank Dinozzo for taking the guy out when he did, or she would not be here with him now. She shifted and whimpered, the movement was enough in itself to make his eyes come back into focus, and he heard the whimper.

It was enough to pull him out of his thoughts, she'd been in the cornor for over and hour now, that was just about enough and five minutes later he was calling her to him.

"Come here" his voice, those two words were as hard as stone when he spoke.

She backed out of the cornor and turned around, her head lowered and eyes on the floor as she hurried over. She knew from experience that to hessitate or fight him when he was this pissed was fruitless and wasn't good for the health of her ass. Hell she already knew she wasn't going to be sitting comfortably for a good week at least.

He watched her scurry over, not making eye contact. He knew that she knew she was in a whole world of trouble. She shifted again from foot to foot, trying to stay still, she knew better, she knew better about alot of things, but apparently not today.

She gasped out at the stinging slap to her upper thigh and her head jerked up looking at him, the slap bringing tears to her eyes, not that it was particulary hard, but it was just the point, the fact that he had to do it when she knew better to stay still.

"Stay still little girl" his voice still hard, and her eyes hit the floor again. He watched her for a few more minutes, to give her a chance to stay still, she wasn't having a very good day, and he could tell.

"Look at me" his voice still hard and with no room in it for not obeying him.

She tried to look at him, she really did, she wanted to, she wanted to look at him but she couldn't. His brow cocked when she didn't readily comply with his command

"Abigail, look at me NOW" His voice getting sharper this time and it startled her, and again she wanted to but she just couldn't bring herself to, to see the dissapointment and anger in his eyes that she knew was there.

She had never, ever made him this mad, maybe going out on a lead by herself wasn't a good thing, maybe she should just stay in the lab where she belonged, running the evidence and not chasing it down anymore.. A lone tear escaped her eye.

He stood at this point, she wasn't complying, and she always complied with him when it was punishment. He watched her as he stood for a few moments infront of her. Placing his hand under her chin, he tilted her head up so they were eye to eye and his brow raised upon seeing the tear.

"When I ask you to do something Abigail, I expect it to be done right away, the first time asked" He stealed himself, all he wanted to do was hold her, make sure she was alright, but he couldn't, she needed this, becasue not doing this.. her guilt would eat away at her, and a guilt ridden Abby was not good, not at all.

She stood there, wanting desperatly to move her head away from him, not to look at him, just to get this over with, her thighs were soaking and she still didn't know why, and her belly was threatening to come up all at the same time. She stayed quiet, a soft sniffle escaping her.

"You know why are you being punished?" He asked, his voice still hard, maybe a bit harder than he intended, but she had not listened to him the first time, and she had run off ALONE.

She swollowed hard and choaked back another sniffle and nodded slightly "I was a bad girl, sir" she said quietly.

That was much better, He did not have to ask her again "Thats right, now tell me how you were bad" He knew she hated to be asked why.

Her head moved slightly trying to look away, he kept his hand right where it was, under her chin, keeping her from looking away, one look from him and she stopped trying.

"I asked you a question Abigail!" she jumped slightly more tears coming now.

"I...I went after a lead and I shouldn't have" she said quickly, quietly.

"And why not Abby?.. why should you not go after a lead?" he asked her.

She shifted a bit again and then gasped out as his hand connected with his upper thigh again "stay still!"

"Because I'm a scientist, and not an agent, sir, I should not go after leads at all, I should give them to one of the agents who are trained to run leads down, sir.. I'm sorry" she said quickly and sniffled again.

His brow raised, not expecting to hear Sorry from her so soon, let alone so sincerely, he loved her desperatly, but she never apoligized this readily, that didn't usually come untill after he had throughly chastised her.

"Very Good, But I suspect you will be more sorry by the time I'm done with you little girl, I don't expect to ever have to have this conversation with you again" His brow cocked "understand?"

It was more of a statement, than a question, and not one she suspected that he was expecting an answer to but she answered anyway "Yes, sir" His brow cocked again.

He nodded curtly "Get over the chair, Abby, now" He pointed, and she looked at him still, not moving right away.. He was mad, angry, pissed, whatever you wanted to call it, he was defiantly NOT happy. This was something else she knew, because her punishements were always OVER his knee, with his hand, not over a chair.

His brow raised slightly "Do NOT make me ask you again Abagail"

She moved, albeit not very quickly, to the chair and got into position, hands flat on the chair, legs spread wide and ass high for him.. she sniffled again, tears falling a bit more now. Her face blushed when she realized that he was looking at her fully now and would see the river that was coming from between her thighs. She still did not know why she was so turned on and so scared and repenant at the same time.

He watched as she slowly got to the chair and then slowly got into position, and there went his brow again, the moment he noticed the wetness between her thighs.

He choose to ignore this, he knew that before he was done with her that this would go away

.

"You knew better than to run off like that chasing a lead, didn't you little girl?" His tone was hard, very hard as he moved to his desk and opened the drawer, pulling out the small strap that he kept there.

She heard him move to his desk and she knew what he was getting, she kept position, not dareingo look back thim, and she answered him "Yes, s..s..sir" Her voice cracked as she tried to hold back the sob that was wanting to escape, along with the pleas for him not to punish her.

He moved back and stood behind her, his hand coming out and caressing her beautiful pale ass. "Atleast you admit it, tho this will NOT happen again, or you will find yourself in this position every morning and night for a month, go it?" with that said his hand came down hard on her ass for emphasis.

She gasped out loudly "got it, Gibb-er, sir!" she held position, and his brow raised again hearing he slip up,. but he let it go.

"Good girl" he praised her, his tone a hard one, and he slipped into position and raised the little strap " 25 little girl and you better think about why you should never be in this position again, with each and everyone"

That said and he brought the little strap down fast and hard on her pale ass. It only took a few to have her fingers start to dig into the chair cushion, she was panting heavily, and wanted to reach back and cover her ass, but she knew better than to break her position and stayed there, the burn in her ass hurting like hell, the tears falling fast now.

He hated doing this, punishing her, but he wasn't about to let her get away with what she had done, he wasn't a week link, he never had been. What she had done today, was nothing short of wreckless and life endangering and he planned on making sure she remembered his dissapointment and displeasure with her for the next week, maybe two.

She held position, her body starting to tremble at the 20 mark and by 25 she was opening sobbing, tellingim how sorry she was, and how she would never do it again, over and over and over again. Her ass was a three alarm fire, she'd been punished before, but never like this, but again she had never done something like this.

Number twenty five and he tossed the little strap, moving to her side, her ass a mess of red welts, slightly turning under the deep shade of red, and he pulled her up off the cair and into his arms, holding her tightly, stroking her hair.

"I love you Abby, don't you ever EVER scare me like that again!" he pulled her head up from his chest looking at her, smoothing her hair back and kissing the tears rolling down her face. "Don't ever do that again" he whisperd, his own eyes full of tears.

She clung to him, sobbing into his chest, desperatly wanting to rub, but then again, she didn't for fear it would only hurt more, and then she was looking up at him, hearing him and she shook her head "I won't, I promise, i'm sorry, I won't, ever again, i'm sorry Gibbs, I love you, I'm sorry"

Kissing her again, he told her she was "forgiven" and that she was his good girl again, she slowly stopped crying, sniffling into him more. He picked her up and headed for their bedroom. He intended on kissing her better and he told her as much as he carried his very chastised little girl up the stairs.

Where She Belongs Part 3

The two guys pulled up infront of the house and parked.

"Why not the driveway, mate?" James asked and Andy kissed him gently.

"Liam will be home in a couple hours, let him park first and then we can pull in behind him, now lets go"

Andy popped out of the car, James following close behind him, they both stopped and looked at each other when they heard the crash. It took them less than a second to get the key out and the door opened.

"Amy!!, where are you?!"

Andy yelled, heading in one direction, James headed the other way.

Amy stood with her one hand on her hip and the other hand tucked tight against herself, and kicked the trash can again for the 5th time. James heard the noise, following it he found her and could not help but grin at her cuteness.

" Found the girl, mate!"

James called and startled her, she turned around and looked at him.

"Why ya kicking the trash, luv?"

Amy looked from him to her feet and quietly moved passed him, heading for the door that went back into the main part of the house. She had hoped that it was only James that was here, as he was pretty laid back and let more things go. However, when she litterally ran right into Andy all her hopes were dashed in one fleeting second.

"Oh sweetheart!, you need to watch where your going" Andy caught her before the force of the impact knocked her to the floor.

"sorry" she mumbled, trying to move passed him, but he was having none of it and stopped her.

"No you do not, Darling.. I need to check ya out, lets go to the kitchen"

Amy's eyes got big. They knew, and if they knew, that ment that Liam knew and if Liam knew, she was in SO much trouble. Amy was not allowed to touch the appliances without someone to watch her, she had issues with appliances, not any that those issues were her fault, they just didn't seem to like her at all.

James chuckled following them. "Still wanna know why ya were kicking the trash, luv" James smiled, realizing that the microwave was gone from the kitchen.

Amy just looked at him, sitting in the chair when Andy gently pushed her onto it. She still couldn't say anything, she was apparently still in shock that they knew and were here.

James looked at his mate "Uh, mate?. I think the bird is in shock"

Andy nodded. "yea baby, I got that already" He said and kneeled down infront of her, taking two of his fingers, he gently tilted her chin up, so she was looking at him.

"Amy, sweetpea, let me see your hand, please"

Amy's eyes focused as she looked at him, his voice bringng her back to reality, she shook her head no.

James frowned.

"Amy, ya best listen to him and let him see your hand, luv"

James was new at this, and she knew that, Andy however was not, he had more experience and he could see the change happening. He smiled, happy that she trusted them enough to let the little part of her out, while her "daddy" wasn't around.

"Amy Grace, show me your hand, little girl" Andy's voice changed as he stood back up. James' head shot up and he looked at Andy.

Amy looked way up at him, biting her lip she shook her head no, again.

"Amy Grace, I know where your daddy keeps your bad girl paddle, if I have to ask you again, I will go get it"

Andy was being stern, James knew that voice and he was hoping that she would just show him, and not argue with him.

The door burst open just as Amy was in the midst of shaking her head no again.

"AM'S!!!" Little cow screeched, kicking the door closed behind her.

Amy jumped up, pushing past first Andy and then James and hurried into her best friends arms, bursting into tears.

The two men looked at each other and smiled.

"thats our girl, mate" James smiled.

"Yes it is, babyboy, calm down" He kissed his nose and layed his hand against his chest, where James heart was beating really fast.

"I'm calm, mate.. I'm calm"

Andy raised a brow at that and James smiled sheepisly, grabbed his mates hand and headed for both girls.

She tossed her bags into the cornor of the livingroom, just as her arms became full of bestfriend.

"Hey, hey.. its ok, nothin' that can't be fixed" she hushed out to her as she moved them both to the sofa, close to her bags. Managing to sit down she pulled Amy onto her lap and cuddled her as she cried.

"Shhhh, its gonna be ok, honest." she cooed to her friend.

They watched quietly as their girl soothed Amy. Yes she was THEIR girl, she just had no idea as of yet, but she would soon. James smiled at the thought, over the last few months he had become quite attached to this girl that he knew only at littlecow.

Amy sniffled into her shirt, leaving a large wet spot in her wake as she looked up at her friend.

"F..fork" she sniffled trying to catch her breath

Her brow raised, as did James' upon hearing her.

" Fork?" she asked, Amy nodded

"Ok, call me an idiot but whats a fork gotta do with this?"

Andy frowned hearing her call herself an idiot, he didn't like it one bit, But he was a patient man, and he just waited quietly, there would be time enough to deal with her being mean to herself.

"I.. I.. wanna have popcorn, daddy saids I cans, buts wif you, and I was hungrys and mades some anyways, buts a forks got stuck to its an the 'wave got brokes" Amy sniffled

Littlecow cringed as she told her what happened. She also realized that she wasn't talking to Amy anymore, but to Amy Grace. She should have known this was going to happen, she knew everything about her bestfriend and this was one of those things.

"Ok... well... you know, shi-.. er I mean stuff happeneds, can I see your hand please?" she asked wiping her eyes with a tissue from her pocket.

Amy Grace shook her head no, and littlecow raised her brow. She had a hurt, stubborn Amy Grace on her hands and she was grasping for a answer here, she didn't want to push her, but she needed to see what was wrong with her hand. She also still hadn't realized that there was two other people in the room with them.

"Fine, I don't gotta look, we can wait till your daddy gets home"

She watched as Amy Grace's eyes went big and her hand shot out and open, so littlecow could see the large burn.

"Oh baby, thats so gotta hurt" she paused taking a very good look at it, her training kicking in as she did so.

"Did you put your hands into cleaning stuff?" Littlecow was looking at her.

Amy looked up at her from looking at her hand.

"I hadda clean, daddy don't like messes, he's gonna be mads"

Littlecow sighed "Three things here baby" she said as she stood with Amy and grabbed her bag.

"Number 1, daddy is a clean freak.. we know this.. who cares?.. Number 2, you touched the cleaning stuff, only BIG you is allowed to do that, daddy is not gonna like that one bit... and number 3, you made your hand worse, common"

Littlecow turned, taking her good hand and started leading her to the downstairs bathroom, but she stopped when the two guys came into view.

"Who are you?"

Andy grinned, she was a fiesty one and pretty as a picture, reminded him of James when they first had gotten togeather years ago. James smiled at HIS girl. Amy Grace tapped littlecows shoulder.

"Thems daddies friends."

she pointed at them in turn.

"thats uncle James and thats uncle Andy" she said through a sniffle, her little girl voice coming out more as she started to calm down a bit more.

It took littlecow seconds to put two and two togeather, her brow raised looking at them and she shook her head taking Amy's good hand again. Ignoreing them, she dragged her bestfriend down the hall to fix her up. Littlecow was freaking inside, not knowing what to do, butterflies taking over in her stomach again, or maybe that was hunger, she really needed to remember to eat more often then she did.

"Hey!" James followed them, Andy followed James, letting him handle this.

"She needs to have her hand fixed up, pet"

"What the hell do you think I am doing?!"

She snapped at him, she knew she possibly should not have snapped at him, but this was just crazy for her.. She came to fix her friend and spend the night with her, hopefully keep Liam from being to mad at her and this is how she meets the two guys she has been talking to online for months. She wasn't to happy, not at all, but she wasn't really mad either, anger wasn't something that she got very easily, she was definatly stressed and when that happened, her mouth engaged before her mind did, and that could be a very bad thing for her sometimes.

Sitting Amy Grace down on the closed toilet seat, she kneeled down and started going through her bag for the antiseptic wash and the cream and bandages.

Amy looked up at James and saw his eyebrow twitching, she sniffled yet again and then looked down at her littlecow. She knew not to say naughty words around Andy or James, but her littlecow didn't. Leaning down she whispered in her ear.

"You saids naughty words, uncle James looks mad, his eyes twitchy"

Littlecow didn't even bother looking up, she stood and went to work, rinsing Amy's hand really well, ignoreing them all. Littlecow had to many things going through her head all at once and everything was getting all jumbled about, she had to focus, and Amy Grace was hurt, that is what she was trying to focus on, to fix her friend.

"Thats a very good observation hunny, looks like someone else is gonna be 'talked' to tonight, besides you, pet"

Amy's head snapped up looking at him and Andy as he stepped to the doorway behind James. Her lip started to tremble and she started to tear up again. Littlecow looked up at her just then, as she grabbed a clean towel to dry her hand off, she turned around and looked at them both.
Her heart stopped a moment, they didn't look happy, and there were those butterflies again in her belly, but she had to do something, an upset Amy Grace could be difficult to handle if you were not her daddy.

"Get out.. NOW, lets go, leave, don't get her worked up!, and stop being.. being.. being.." she paused "well I don't know what your being but your being it and get out!"

She pushed them both out the door, what little bit they had been inside, and then shut and locked the door behind them. Taking a deep deep breathe she went back to trying to fix Amy up before she burst into tears from all the stress.

James eyes widened and he turned to look at Andy..

"She.. she.. she just locked us out Pet!, and did you hear her!"

Andy smiled, then nodded

"yeah, babyboy I heard her, reminds me of you way way back"

He grinned and James frowned. "Nothing like me Pet, nothing like me at all"

His arms crossed and Andy laughed outloud.

"Oh yea, I see the resemblance sweetpea"

He kissed his boy gently and then knocked on the door.

"Alright, listen up little girl, you have to the count of 5 to open this door or I get the key and you WILL NOT like what will happen"

Amy Grace's eyes got big hearing him and she looked at Littlecow and sniffled

"Uncle Andy is way way mad." she whispered

Littlecow heard him, and the butterflies changed to a whole hive of bees in her belly, she felt sick, or maybe it was the not eating yet that made her feel sick, but she was pretty sure it was her nerves and the stress all mixed togeather from the last couple weeks, and then tonight. SHe shook her head and tried to ignore, tried to calm herself down.

"you can wait!, I'm fixing her hand!" she yelled back at him then paused, she didn't mean to sound so nasty when she said that.

"I mean!!, please, wait, I will be done in a minute" she toned herself down, trying to fix what she had just done.

Amy looked at her. "you done now, I not likes bandages, theys itchy"

She nodded. "yea baby, i'm done, go on out and find some cartoons on the t.v, I'll be there in a minute"

Amy Grace smiled brightly and sniffled again, opening the door she bounced out and smiled, holding up her hand

"All fixed nows!, my cow cans fix anything!" she yelled and James cringed

" Indoor voice, pet, indoor voi-" he trailed off as she took off down the hallway. then turned back to the open bathroom door, watching his girl.

Andy crossed his arms, and watched her.

"That is alot of medical stuff you have, sweetpea, where ya get it?"

Andy asked and she turned, closeing her bag and looked at him, her brow raised. gosh they were both handsome, way handsome, this couldn't be a good thing. Taking a deep breath she reminded herself that no one ever wants her, so just to keep it simple, do not get involved, this is why you do not get attached. Her belly hurt.

" I have background training as an emergency medical technician" she walked out of the bathroom, making sure not to get to close to them. Being simple and vague was the best thing, and do NOT get attached, DO NOT.

James had other idea's however, as he gently, yet firmly grabbed her arm and pulled her around, his eyes meeting hers.

"We were talking Pet, kinda rude ta just walk away, don't ya think?"

Littlecow looked at him and shook her head, pulling her arm away from him. This was not good, not good at all!. He was touching her and giving her big bad butterflies!.

"No, actually, I do not, I actually think, that it is the best thing, to just walk away, to keep everything simple and not personal, excuse me, I need to go make sure that Amy is ok." she spoke firmly but quietly.

She hurried down the hall and into the livingroom. How could they even want to talk to her?, or look at her even, she was not a stick chyc, or a model, she was.. well just as everyone called her, a cow. She knew this was going to be one of those one time things and then goodbye, she wasn't going to do that to herself and she had other things to worry about than herself, she needed to worry about Amy.

"Amy Grace?" she looked around the livingroom, she didn't see her anywhere in there and started for the kitchen when she felt herself being picked up.

"HEY!, what are you doing?!" she screetched out

" Doing what should have been done long ago, sweetpea!" Andy managed to take a seat on a chair and lay her over his lap.

"Put me down!, let me go!, your going to hurt yourself!, I'm to big to pick up" she flailed, trying to get down and then found herself stairing at the carpet, her eyes got big. She panicked

"Stop fighting little girl! and stop saying bad about yourself!"

Andy mamaged to get her legs locked under one of his and her hands contained after a few minutes, she was stronger than she looked. His hand came down in a sharp resounding smack. This caught littlecow offguard and she stopped her fighting and trying to get up.

"OWW, HEY!, STOP!" she yelled at him

This was different, and scarey, yet strangely comforting.. but she still didn't know what to do, or what not to do, except that she wanted up and was feeling her panick rise.. She couldn't let herself get attached, she just couldn't. She would not let herself get attached, no one ever wanted her.

"Oh no little girl!"

*SMACK SMACK SMACK*

"You deserve this!"

Andy's voice was firm but gentle as his hand came down on her jean clad ass, with one resounding smack after another. James stood back watching, wincing here and there, he knew what being on the receiving end of one of these sessions felt like.

"OWWWWNOOOOOOSTOPPPPP!"

She tried to kick,, but her legs were trapped under his, her hands were trapped as well and she was feeling each and every spank as they fell, her ass was on fire and she knew she wasn't going to sit well after this.

"Oh little girl, you are still not getting this are you?, I am in charge here, and the longer you fight, the longer I spank!"

His Hand kept coming down, it was only a little harder than before, but still pretty damn hard as far as she was concerned... and she was concerned.. for her ass!.

"NOOOO SORRY SORRY! PLEASEE STOP!!"

She tried to get up again, only to find he just got harder and faster.. finally not being able to take it anymore, she gave in and stopped fighting him, the tears falling hard.

Andy slowed down, but didn't stop right away, his spanks getting softer as he went on, with gentle rubbing interspearced.

"Thats a good babygirl.. cry it all out, thats my good girl"

Andy cooed to her, finally stopping, he lifted her up, into his lap, Making sure that her sore ass didn't touch anything, he smoothed her hair back as James moved to sit beside them.

"Thats a good Pet" James still wasn't to sure of himself or what to say, but he tried and Andy smiled to him, James rubbed her back gently.

The Beginning of Them Chapter 4

Four Days...

It had been four days since Lorne told her what he had and Tangi took it totally out of context. She left that night after she KNEW that everyone was going to be asleep, so she wasn't stopped by anybody.

She loved him, she never loved anyone before, not even her mother the way she loved him, but as she kept telling herself, she should have not gotten attached, she should have just left that first night and forgotten about him. Right... that wasn't gonna happen, she missed him and loved him and just wanted to be held.

Lorne was a wreck, when he had woken up the next morning, she was gone, he had just thought that she was in the hotel kitchen making herself some breakfast, just as she did every morning. However when he went to find her and give her his good morning kiss, she wasn't there. He didn't panic right away, he asked Gunn, Wesley, Cordy if they had seen her, they had not.

He spent the day waiting for her to come home, she hadn't and when midnight hit and she wasn't home when she was supposed to be, he started to panic then, then he sent out the troops to look for her, sure that something had happened to her, he spent hours out looking for her as well. But LA was a BIG city and she could be anywhere.

She was miserable, not only emotionally but physically as well, she was pretty sure she picked up a cold or soemthing somewhere, even though she had never had one before. Shivering she finally hit the park, the one the library lady told her about being a Preserve of some kind, she figured she could live there, it wasn't like she needed a house, she was Garou, she could just shift to her little black wolf form,

She stopped at a park bench and sat down a moment, squeeking out rather loudly when she took her shoes off..

"Damn feet, common get used to these damn shoes already!"

She said it to herself, not to anyone else, there was no one else around as far as she could tell, nothing she could detect anyway, but the cold she had was obscuring her sence of smell anyway.

"Little late for a walk is it not?"

She startled and growled, turning to look....Wesley

"No"

She slipped her shoes back on and quickly stood, making sure not to wince and tried to hurry off, hoping he would not follow.

"We've missed you the last few day.. Cordelia has no one to talk to and Lorne, he hasn't sang since you left"

He was following her, she frowned and kept walking.

"yea, ok"

She said softly

"why did you leave?"

He stepped up beside her as they walked.

" 'cause"

"Because, why?"

"Go away"

She kept walking, not wanting to talk to him, not wanting to talk to anyone, just to be left alone to get over her hurt.

"Free park"

She scowled at him and he mearly smiled back at her as she headed into the wooded area of the park.

"Tangi, I know you love him"

He hurried to keep up

"yea, but i'm... on my own again.. so anyway... go away"

She shifted to her little black wolf form and crawled under a bush.

"Bloody Hell!.. you are a brat!"

His voice raised and her little snout peeked out at him, her eyes looking up at him. There was that brat word again, everyone kept telling her that and she wasn't sure what it ment. Curling up finally, she tucked her tail in around her.

"I'm sorry, that was... mean, will you atleast pease talk to me"

He knelt down and looked at her gently. She connected to his mind, using her gift of mindspeak and spoke to him.

"go back Wesley, forget about me.. its better this way."

His brow raised in only the way that Wesley can.

" Says you.. I'm sorry to tell you this Tangi, but people love and care about you"

She just curled up more

"Atleast for Lornes sake"

She looked up at him, still connected throught mind speak.

"But he dosen't.. nevermind.. go away!"

"Dosen't what.. love you?"
"But he dosen't want... *GROWLSSSSSSSSS* go away!"

He stayed knelt down looking at her, he was sure he must look such a sight, kneeling down, talking to a bush, becasue he was sure that no one could see her under there.

"Dosen't want you?.. why in the world would you say that?"

" Cause.. go away!"

Her head snaked out and she bit his ankel. Wesley grabbed at his ankel and fell back on his ass.

"BLOODY HELL!"

Normally the disply from Wesley would make her smile, but it didn't and she just curled up more.

"I shall go back and inform Lorne that you have no feelings for him at all"

He stood

"For if you did, you surely would not leave him the sobbing broken mess that you have.. good day to you"

She watched Wesley limp off and then curled back up and sniffled into her tail.

"BLOODY HELL!"

Startling she looked over and saw Wesley, standing stareing at a man.. or something she wasn't sure.

"I usually prefer a hot redhead or a sweet little blonde, but you'll do"

The man vamped and Tangi crawled out of her little buch and stood in her little wolf form watching as Wesley reached into his pocket. His face fell, and Tangi figured he forgot a stake or some other interesting weapon she wasn't allowed to touch.

"growwwwwllllllsssss"

She shifted to her Human form and moved to them quickley, kicking the vampire as he went to bite Wesley.

"Bite him and die.... Don't bite him and still die"

She kicked him again

"BITCHHHHHHH!!!!!!!GROWLSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!"

The vampire flipped to his feet fast, and normally she would have been ready for him, but again this cold had her not at her best. He backhanded her, catching her offguard.

"Little girls shouldn't interfere with daddies business"

He backhanded her again, and this time she fell to the ground, her mouth bleeding. Charging him, and knocking him to the ground, Wesley started to hit the vamp.

"Never touch her!"

Tangi jumped back up with a growl and watched as Wes knocked him over and they started rolling around. That was untill the vamp kicked Wes off, jumped up and his Fangs sunk into Wesley's neck.

"I told you.. bite him and your dead"

With that said she shifted to her 10 foot tall War form and grabbed the vamp off Wesley, Breaking him in half and ripping his head off, only to be covered in dust.

"GROWLSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!"

She dropped him and shifted back to her human form, wondering again why these vampires were different that the ones she had previously come into contackt with, was there two different types?. She looked over at Wes"

"you ok?"

"I do rather belive that he bit me"

His hand went to his neck

"Yes it would seem that he did"

Tangi moved to him and layed her hand on his neck, calling her gift of mothers touch, she healed him,

"You might wanna go before you become a happy meal with legs.. again"

She shifted to her little black wolf form and headed back to her bush.

"Thank you"

He watched her

"Please don't go"

She sat down on her haunches and looked at him, He wolf actually pouting, not very happy and just generally growlie.

"I know its hard love, trust me I've wanted to walk so many times, but we are family we love you, Lorne loves you"

She shook her little wolfy head and connected to him through mindspeak again.

"dosent' want me"

She said in his head

"Told me I was on my own"

He little wolf head shook sadly again.

"my fault for getting attached, people don't just want me, it never happeneds"

She got up and slinked back to her bush. Wesley sighed loudly.

" Why do you think he dosen't want you?"

She curled back up under her bush

" Just tell me, and I shall leave you"

"cause he told me I was on my own, I know what that means.. suprised it didn't happen sooner"

"In what context did he say this?"

He wolfish head looked up, her eyes meeting his

"He said it"

She shook her little head agian and and curled back up, biting his ankel again when he came close.

"DAMMIT!"

He hopped around rubbing his ankel and she layed her head down again on her tail.

"THAT IS ENOUGH!"

He reached down and grabbed her tail, pulling her out. He claws dug in as he pulled, she couldn't believe that he was pulling her tail.

"GROWLSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!"

Her jaws snapping around to bit him again, however he was faster and she found her snout in his grasp. She growled again louder and Wesley growled right back, getting even louder.

"YOU WILL BEHAVE LIKE A PROPER YOUNG LADY, SHIFT AND COME HOME WITH ME THIS INSTANT OR I SHALL THRASH YOUR DISOBEYING LITTLE BOTTOM!"

She stopped moving, not making a sound, just staying the way she was and Wesley growled again, sighing.

"bloody hell!, are you going to make me carry you?"

She still did not move or make a sound, even as he reached down to pick her up, she jumped out of his arms and scurried under her bush yet again.

"DAMN WOMAN!"

He got down on his hands and knees trying to crawl after her as she moved herself right through the bush and out the otherside, shifting up to her human form, she started to walk again. Hoping to find another bush.

"TANGI!"

He saw her and got up to go after , his foot being entangled by the bush. Waving a hand and muttering a few choice words, she used another gift to make the bush leave him alone and started walking again.

"oh!.. thank you, now do come home please"

She kept walking, pulling her jacket around her more, she was chilly and not feeling well.

"TANGI PLEASE, HE'S DYING WITHOUT YOU!"

She stoped, turning around with a growl, tears in her eyes

"he said I was on my own!"

Turning back she sniffled, trying to make herself not cry, it was hard but she keept chanting 'won't cry, won't cry' in her head. She wiped her eyes and kept walking. Wesley's brow furrowed.

"Bloody hell!.. he didn't litterally mean, on your own.. he ment that he was no longer going to set limits for you!"

"GO AWAY!!!"

She screamed it at him, tears falling and she hurridly wiped at them.

"BLOODY FINE!, I BLOODY WELL WILL!"

Wes turned and stormed off for the hotel, not happy at all. Tangi saw the bench and sat down, pulling her jacket around her more. Angel waited untill Wes was gone and choose this moment to show himself.

"Whats wrong with you?"

She looked up and the only thing she did was stare at his hair, through sniffles. Angel looked up.

"What?.. something in my hair?"

He brushed his fingers through it. Tangi took the opportunity while he was distracted with his hair, to walk away, still sniffling.

"hey.. HEY!!"

He managed to get to her, right behind her infact

" Whats your problem, tangi"

"I dunno, why don't you tell me what it is Angel.. since you seem to think I have one.. GO AWAY!"

She kept walking, and Angel caught up to her again.

"Lorne loves you and this is how you love him back?"

She stopped and turned around growling at him, pissed that he would say something like that. She looked up and then shifted to her 10 foot war form and grabbed Angel, putting him behind her. She stepped over and grabbed the demon that was coming for Him.

Angel not sure for a few minutes what was happening, was damn sure that he pissed her off and that she was going to kill him, then he saw it.. the demon. She grabbed it and started whacking it againt a tree, over and over and over and over again. Even after it was way past dead.

"Tangi"

She kept whacking the demon against the tree, Angel moving to her and gently placing a hand on her hairy shoulder. Dropping it, she shifted back to her human form, crying, falling to the grass, her wolf still growling loudly.

Angel moved to her and kneeled down, as she shifted to her little wolf form again, it was more comfortable for her most days. He hugged her gently to him, despite what she thought, Angel did love her, and care for her. She crawled into his lap growling and sniffling.

"Its ok kid, I promise ya its all going to be ok"

She shifted back to her human form, Angel was getting dizzy just watching her, she couldn't make up her mind. He hugged her closer and tighter.

"We love you kid..Lorne loves you"

She sniffled wiping her nose on his shirt, his brow raised.

"Lets go hom.. talk to him"

She sniffled and shook her head no. Standing, he held her tight and headed back to the hotel. Sniffling in to his shirt, her wolf growled, whiney.

"I write the songs that make the whole world sing"

Angel rubbed her back and started singing to her.

"don't wanna"

She sniffled again, trying to keep her nose from running.

"ok"

He kept walking and singing, noting just how much sniffling she was doing.

"Dosen't want me"

she sniffled out softly, shifting back to her little wolfy form

"He has never wanted anything more in his entire life.. kid"

He gently stroked her fur as he walked.

She sneezed

"Bless you"

Pulling a tissue from his pocket, she procedded to wipe her wet snout with it and then shoved it back into his pocket. Turning the cornor her headed up the walk and in through the hotel doors.

"THANK THE SWEET LORD!"

Lorne saw them before anyone else did and hurried over to them. Tangi sneezed and sniffled again, her claws digging into Angel.. Wincing he managed to pull her off him and hand her little self over to Lorne who was trying to access her for any wounds, noting that she was sick.

"He wants ya, kid"

She sniffled again as Lorne held her close kissing her furry little head.

"Thank you Angelcakes, common kitten"

He carried her up the staris, her wolfish head laying on his shoulder. Lorne strokign her fur as they walked.

"I was worried sick about ya babygirl"

He got to their room and went in, locking the door behind him, stiting on the bed, he held her close to him, keeping her in his arms

"I was scared to death you'd been hurt"

Sniffling she shifted back to her human form and looked at him, he let his hold on her loosen a bit and then she shifted back to her wolf form, again she was having issues with her shifting, she wasn't sure what form she wanted to be in. But Lorne had other plans.

"Ohhhh nooooooo, no kitten, I want you human"

She sniffled and stayed in her little wolf form, slinking off his lap and onto the bed.

"Tangi Sophia McGreggor"

She knew that tone and he WAS using her full name, that was never a good sign, but she couldn't bring herself to shift and she went to the end of the bed and curled up. He watched her, his brow cocked.

" you are getting a spanking, little girl"

She curled her tail around her, his other brow raised this time.

"TANGI SOPHIA MCGERGGOR!"

She startled and jumped off the end of the bed, shifing back to her human form and standing there, not looking at him, sniffling.

"Come here little girl"

She shook her head no and wiped her nose on her sleeve.

"If I have to come get you, I will use my paddle to talk"

Her arms crossed and her wolf growled loudly at him as she stalked into the bathroom, kicking the door closed behind her. She sat on the side of the tub and burst into tears again. Lorne sighed and headed to the bathroom, all he wanted to do was to hold her and kiss her and make sure she was alright.

But he knew she could not get away with what happened, even if she had mis-understood, she needed to know that she was to come talk to him and ask him if she didn't understand, not run off. He opened the door and went in.

"Tangi we need to re-evaluate the rules here little girl.. something I darn well plan on doing.. so cry and pout all you want to.. that adorable little ass is getting spanked and spanked good"

Her arms still crossed, her wolf growling at him still, she sneezed a couple times and reached over for a tissue

"Bless you... I have all night, young lady"

She looked up at him all sniffly and teary, then he had his arms full of his little wolf girl. Holding her tight he kissed her head, his own eyes teary.

"I love you tangi, with everything I am"

She managed to tell him she loved him through more sniffles and sneezes. He grabbed another tissue and wiped her nose for her, dropping the used tissue into the trash can.

"You've gotten yourself a cold kitten.. after I spank ya, your gonna take a hot bath and have some tea"

Sh sniffled and grabbed another tissue.

"don't wanna"

she wipped her nose and winced, it was way sore and possibly red now, though she was just guessing as she hadn't looked at it yet.

"To bad, your gonna"

She sniffled and pouted up at him

"don't wanna spankin' "

His eyes held hers firmly

"Your getting and good one, with my paddle. You fight me and it will be two. I'm not playing here little girl"

Again she sniffled and looked down at the floor this time. Lorne led her out of the bathroom and back into their bedroom.

"now I think you need to bend over that chair, your tushy bare, kitten"

He kissed her head. She kicked her shoes off, her feet sore as hell and still icky, she pulled her jeans and panties off, getting over the chair and waiting.
"Bath and tea"

He got behind her, the bad girl paddle that she didn't like to much in his hand.

"those feet tended to and bedrest tomorrow.. count little girl"

He brought the paddle down... hard.. She winced right from the first one and sniffled, tears were already falling before he started.

SPANK SPANK SPANK SPANK SPANK

She counted each and everyone, not missing any and he paused when they got to fifteen. Her tears falling hard by the fifth one. He rubbed gently.

"your doing just fine, kitten.. halfway done.. I love you tangi"

He raised his paddle and started again.. Hard. She made it to the 20th spank before she disolved into sobs, her ass was on fire and she started to cough as her hands went back to protect herself.

"I'm sorrrrryyyyyyyyyyyyy"

Lorne stopped jsut in time when her hands went back, saving her little fingers.

"Little girl, you have 10 left.. move those hands"

She sobbed, shaking her head, crying into the chair.

"If i have to move them, it WILL be 10 more"

She moved them , still sobbing

"I'mmm sorrrryyyyyyyy"

He held his own tears in check, trying to be strong, he knew she needed this even though all he wanted to do was hold her and cuddle her.

"Good.. then be a good little kitten and take the rest"

And he begun again, a little softer.. but just a little. She winced when he started, her ass onfire and she was defiantly sorry, and she tried so hard to be good and take the rest. She sniffled and stopped herself from crying, biting her lip she found something else to focus on.

He did the last 10 fast and when they were over, he stepped back and pointed.

"Corner.. 10 minutes.. no rubbing"

She heard him and stood, her arms wrapped around herself, moving to the corner she put herself in and stared at the wall off in her own little world again. Sighing, he took a seat in the chair, his eyes on her red little tushy, worrying that he was to hard on her.

Off in her own little world, the place she went to most often to keep herself from panicking, she just stared at the wall. Lorne looked at the clock on the bedside table and tried to will it to move faster. He stood and got up, getting some lotion, he moved to the bed and called her over.

"Come here, Kitten"

She didn't hear him, she had tuned everything out, her arms still wrapped around her.

"Tangi, kitten, come here.. babygirl"

She still hadn't heard him, but just sniffled not moving.

"TANGI!"

He didn't like having to raise his voice to get her attention and he was pretty sure that she was gone to wherever it was she sometimes goes to. Her eyes refocused and she made her way over to him, her arms still wrapped around herself. His arms opened for her. She moved into them and layed her head on his shoulder.

"I love you babygirl.. all is forgiven, please don't scare me like that again"

His arms wrapped around her and he kissed her head gently. She started crying again. He held her tight, rocking untill she started to calm down and was just sniffling again.

"I love you kitten"

His fingers gently rubbed her back.

"love... you"

She sniffled out. He smiled and kissed her head again

"you know your my special gal, don't ya?"

She nuzzled and layed her head on his shoulder again, her eyes closed.

"you are my world kitten.. my heart and soul.. I be lost without you.. there'd be no song without you"

She sniffled again and her tiny little body relaxed finally as she driffed off into sleep. She hadn't slept in days, the cold was running her down and the spanking she just had recieved exhausted her even more. She was fully content, and he knew that, if she wasn't she would not be curled into him and have fallen asleep.

Pulling the blanket up, he figured she would be awake later, and then he would bath her, fix her little feet, and make sure she had some tea. In the meantime he scooted back on the bed and pulled the blanket over them both, making sure she was covered and would be warm. His eyes closed as he finally fell into sleep with her.

The Beginning Of Them Chapter 3

Eight months into their relationship, saw Lorne and Tangi living at the Hyperion with Angel and as Tangi called them , His Merry band of idiots. Though she did have to admit that Gun was great with the weapons, that she had found out she was NOT allowed to touch, because Angel said so.

She wasn't to worried about not being allowed to touch the weapons, as annoying as it was, becasue there were some great weapons she wanted to try out. She had her own, some that no one even knew about, not even Lorne. She had her Staff, her sword, and other things as well, and they had not even seen her shift to her war form yet either.

Tangi was at the point that she really didn't care about the weapons to much, of course the first few days was hard, just to look at them, but now she had other things to do, more important things to do. A guy she knew from a long time ago, had found her and told her that he had seen Drake in a club, she needed to see if it WAS really him.

Thats what she had been doing, spendig her days, while Lorne was having Caritas re-built. She managed to get into the club, only becasue she used a glamour on herself to make herself look like someone she wasn't, she had also masked her scent so no one would know it was her.

It was him, nasty as ever, all over the women, and he was even asking people if they had seen her. Fortunatly she had enough sence to make sure she wasn't noticable when she was out, so no one had seen her, and no one was telling him they had seen her.

She stayed a couple hours watching him, but it was getting late and she needed to get going back to the hotel. Almost midnight when she left the club, she made note to herself that taking the sewers back at night are NOT safer, nor are they faster. She managed to get out of them pretty quickly AFTER the third vamp attack.

Tangi quickly hurried around the corner and into the courtyard, taking a seat at the fountain, she slipped her little shoes off and stuffed her sore, blistered feet into the fountain, sighing at the coolness of the water on them. She was desperatly hoping that it was alright to do, no one had told her different and she wasn't sure she could handle Angel tonight, if he yelled at her again, she just may cry and that would never be a good thing.

"Feels good huh?"

Cordelia stepped out the back doors and Tangi jumped, startled, almost falling into the fountain, she growled and looked over

"yes, sore feet, my shoes don't like me"

Cordy walked over and sat down.

"ow!, no wonder sweetie, you need a shopping trip"

She said this all the while looking at Tangi's feet and slipping her OWN sandles off and slipping them into the fountain water.

"oh yea, thats nice"

Tangi watched her close her eyes and shook her head, she still wasn't sure about Cordy.. she was different, and not necessarily in a bad way either. She was definatly not her Fred, defiantly not.

"I don't shop.. I don't like shopping.. I don't like people as a general rule..my shoes are ok, maybe a little small but i'm used to it"

Cordy's eyes popped open and widened as she looked at her.

"ok, gotta admit, your the first girl to ever say those words to me"

She smiled and tangi frowned

"How about if you could get anything you wanted and not ever have to go to the store.. we can get what you want on the internet"

Tangi shook her head

"I break electronic things, I dunno why, but it happeneds all the time, I can't use them, anyway.. i'm good"

Cordy looked at her for a long time.

"You miss the club, huh?"

Tangi shrugged

"I'm good wherever, even if it is with mister, Tangi don't touch the weapons..Tangi can you leave the room.. or the I'm telling Lorne.. I'm good, thats why I don't stay around here much"

Cordy splashed her feet a little

"Ohh Gawd, you poor thing, you know there is a way to keep the caped brooder out of you face, wanna know the secret?"

Tangi looked at her quickly

"Not if its gonna get me in trouble with Lorne, he's already not happy when I go out and stay out late"

Cordy raised her hand

"I sware, no trouble at all.. all ya gotta do, is when Angel starts to get all.. smug.. Like when he is all, tangi go watch some t.v thing.. look at his hair"

She looked over at her again

"His hair?.. why his hair?"

Cordy nodded and giggled

"yeah, if you look at it, he will think that something was wrong with it and get all flustered and leave you alone, an old friend .. Xander taught me that"

Tangi nodded, not to sure

"Cool, hope it works"

She then pulled her feet out of the fountain and pulled her socks back on and winced when she shoved her feet back into her shoes.

"I should get something to eat in the kitchen... I missed Dinner. So you konw if theres something to make a sandwhich with in there, like lunch meat?"

Cordy nodded

"yep, its stocked full of every kinda meat there is, even some ya don't want in your fridge"

She looked at the older girl

"Like what?"

Cordy got close to her and whispered

"Ever heard of Swen?"

Tangi shook her head no

"Lorne loves it with a little bit of cheese and some icky sauce"

Tangi made a face, following Cordy inside

"that sounds horrible"

She made her way into the kitchen, straight to the fridge, she noted the raw rabbit on one of the shelves, and knowing that it was hers, she took it out and started tearing into it. Any manners that she may have aquired the last few months ... right out the window. Cordy watched her and cringed.

"Ok I think I will be veggie tonight"

She grabbed the salad out and sat with a plate and started to put some on her plate, noteing that Tangi was growling to the.. rabbit?.. Cordy shook her head and smiled. Only a garou could love raw rabbit.

"Thats what I like to hear!, Happy garou"

Lorne smiled from the doorway and then stepped into the kitchen smiling at Cordy

"hey, kitten"

Cordy smiled and added her dressing

"Hey, Lorne"

Tangi finished eating and got up to dispose of the bones into the trash bag, wiping her mouth on her sleeve. It didn't take her long to eat, especially if she liked it, now if she didn't, she would just sit there and look at it. She hated veggies, as Lorne could tell you the fights they have had about a balanced diet, he took to buying the juice with the veggies in, that you could not taste, just so she got her veggies.

"Was that good, kitten?"

Tangi nodded and sat down, smiling at him

"yea, it was ok"

Cordy raised her brow

"Just ok?, you sure looked like you liked it, you attacked that baby like Wes on a chicken wing"

Lorne laughed, and Tangi looked at her

"Huh?"

She honestly had no idea what the older girl was talking about, and she waved her hand standing up

"no, don't tell me, I don't wanna have a clue as to what your talkin' about here, i really don't"

She grabbed a glass from the cupboard and the juice from the fridge. Cordy looked at her and stood.

"I think i'll go finish this in my office"

She headed down the hall with her salad. Lorne shook his head knowing that his little girl was on the boarder of being not to nice, he expected that she was over-tired, he didn't expect her to be in pain, she did hide it well. He watched her.

"Need some help, kitten?"

Tangi looked at her glass and then up to him

"No, why?.. I just got some juice"

His brow raised

"you, ok?"

It was her turn to raise her brow.

"yes...why?"

"Just checking.. Don't want my kitten unhappy"

He kissed her softly and she smiled kissing him back.

"Been in worse places, I'm good"

She smiled at him again and he looked at her, pulling her onto his lap

"You sure, 'cause I'm feeling something here"

"Feeling what?"

He kissed her head, his arms wrapping around her more

"That maybe you aren't ok"

She looked at him

"but I am I was just having juice"

He nodded and smiled

"ok, juice away kitten"

He knew that something was wrong, he wasn't often wrong when it came to his garou. She slipped herself off his lap and took a seat at the table. She still wasn't to comfortable with the lap sitting but she was getting way better at it, even Lorne had noticed how much better she was getting with certin things.

"So what you do today, anything exciting happen?"

"Well I'm not allowed to touch the weapons and I get asked to leave the room all the time, so I went to the park for awhile and there was a petting zoo, which was not ok, so I let the animals all out of the cages and stuff. Then I went to the library and there was a guy talking about prehistoric stuff there and then to the museum, they had a exibit of ancient masks.. then I walked around for awhile.. then came home and put my feet in the fountain and had an interesting talk with Cordy, had some rabbit casue I missed dinner and now I'm having juice and talking with you"

She smiled, having left out the part where she had gone to that club for a couple hours to watch Drake. Lorne smiled listening to her babble on, atleast she seemed to be talking a bit more these days, It had taken awhile, it was STILL taking awhile, but it was getting better.

"Sounds like you had a busy day.. animal rescure"

Lorne chuckled

"i'll talk to Angelcakes.. he comes off a bit snappy at times without meaning to be"

She ignored the Angel part

"Yea, I don't think the police were to happy I let all the animals out.. but again I didn't stick around to ask them"

Lornes brow raised, the ignoreing of Angel not lost on him.

"There was police?"

Tangi nodded

"I guess... yes.. i mean there was, I just never stuck around to talk to them"

Lorne laughed.

"Oh kitten!, I wish I could bottle you up, your so darn priceless"

She blushed and looked into her juice glass, and Lorne grinned

"Wanna go upstairs?

Tangi looked up and over to the clock

"yea, I guess its after one, probably time to go to bed"

"yea, we could sleep.. or we could cuddle"

Tangi nodded and stood

"ok"

She headed with her juice out of the kitchen, toward the stairs.. her feet hurt, she couldn't wait to get her shoes off and let them rest. Lorne watched her, noteing the bit of limping that she was doing, he scooped her up, chuckling when she squeeked out and grabbed for him frantically

"Shh babydoll, its just me, who loves ya, and is gonna give ya a foot rub"

She held onto him , looking at him, her heart still racing a bit from the scare.

"there ok, Lorne"

Lorne looked at her as they walked, she in his arms.

"I have that blueberry lotion you love so much, kitten"

She layed her head against his shoulder

"I... ummm.. I.. that might not be ok on them"

He opened the door and led them inside, kicking it gently shut behind them

"Why not, pumpkin"

She shrugged

"there kinda sore and icky"

He sat her down on the bed carefully and smiled

"I planned on given them a good washing first... with the blueberry soap"

She pulled her feet up and started to take her shoes and socks off, wincing as she did at the blisterd and icky bleeding feet.

"there kinda sore"

Lorne turned around when he actually heard her wince..

"Oh kitten, ohh babygirl, your poor tootsies!"

He kneeled down, looking them over.

"You stay right there, i'm gonna get them all fixed up"

He kissed her head and hurried into the bathroom, Tangi looked back down at her feet and wiggled her toes, which caused more winces and an actual whimper because there was a huge blister between the first two toes on her right foot.

"owwwwwwwwwww"

She said barely above a whisper as Lorne hurried back in with a basin of warm water and antiseptic, the first aide kit under his arm, he started to gently clean them.

"First thing tomorrow little girl, you are getting some new shoes"

She winced and reflex made her pull her feet away, he looked at her, she moved her feet back to him quickly.

"My shoes are ok, there not bad.. they don't have holes"

Lorne tried to be as gentle as he could. There was a long pause in the conversation and he looked up at her.

""You don't have to throw them out, but you are getting new ones, no arguing"

She winced again

"Why?.. they are still good"

He finished up and applied the ointment

"They are to darn small for those adorable feet, thats why"

She winced again, fighting the urge to pull her feet away again.

"But they are ok"

She said way to quietly.. He stopped and looked up at her

"Why are you puttin' up such a fuss, kitten?"

She shrugged

"Cause there perfectly good shoes"

"they are to damn small for your feet!"

She closed her mouth and sat quietly watching him fix her feet. He finished bandaging up the worst of the blisters and kissed each and every sore little toe.

"thank you"

He smiled

"You are welcome"

Lorne gathered everything up and and started to put them away

"You up for those cuddle now babygirl?"

She nodded and stood, moving over to the dresser and pulling off her backpack. Getting out some jammies she came back over to the bed, sitting down.

"i'd have done that for you, kitten"

Her feet hurt more now, but maybe they would be better soon with the ointment working on them, she shrugged

"Its ok"

She started getting undressed and he moved to sit beside her.

""I don't want you walking around for a day or two, untill these start to heal up"

He Helped her get undressed, pulling her pj top over her head

"But I wanna go out tomorrow"

She pulled her jeans off and started to pull her sleep pants on.

"you rest these babies tomorrow, and after we get you new shoes, you go out"

She pouted and nodded to him, pulling herself back up the bad to her pillows and watched him go into the bathroom. He loved her, and he was positively sure that she had no idea that she had started to pout at him the last coupe months, it was adorable as far as he was concerned. Finishing his bathroom duties as fast as he could he came back out to the bedroom.

"I love you kitten"

He pulled her into his arms, gently. She rolled over and nuzzled into him, growling softly.

"love you to"

He smiled, he loved her little growls.

"Can we get a puppy?"

His eyes opened again and he looked down at her

"A puppy?, kitten, do you know how much work and responsibility a puppy is?"

She nodded

"uhuh, can we have one?"

She said softly, growling into his chest still. Lorne stroked her hair gently, thinking about that for a long time. He had his hands definatly full with his babygirl, he wasn't sure he was up for a puppy as well, maybe though, next year, when everything settled down a bit more.

"Kitten, I don't think so, not right now"

She just nodded, she had expected he would say no, but she tried, why argue, it would still be no, only she was pretty sure it would still be no and she would have a way sore ass for it to.

"ok"

He looked down at her, something was wrong,that was to easy, it was never that easy with his fiestly little garou. Especially when she seemed to have her heart set on something.

"When's the club gonna be fixed?"

She tried to change the subject and that wasn't lost on him either, she tended to do that alot lately.

"I dunno kitten, this is the third time in as many weeks you know...I really need to have a talk with those girls about their protection spells."

"I could try and help, I know things, you know"

She said quietly, yawning. He smiled

"I know you do babygirl, are you sure its not a bother?"

She shook her head

"No, I was waiting for ya to ask, and you didn't bother me, I jsut figured ya didn't want my help"

She shrugged

"Its ok"

"I always want your help kitten, you should know that, speak up, don't let anyone scare ya"

She shifted trying to get herself more comfortable.

"You don't scare me.. alright, Angel scares me.. he reminds me of someone I used to know, but its ok, Cordy told me to stare at his hair and he would leave me alone."

Lorne laughed, hard

"She does that alot, oh yea"

Tangi grinned at him, she loved his laugh

"So next time he tells me to do something, I'm just gonna stare at his hair"

Lorne laughed harder if that were at all possible and she smiled and nuzzled closer.

"I love you kitten, tomorrow we'll go to the club and let you do your thing"

She nodded and he held her tighter.

"Ok, I gotta get some things first, before i can preform the rite"

"No problem kitten, just let me carry ya wherever you need to go"

She made a face and shook her head.

"I can walk Lorne, honest its ok"

"we'll see how those feet are... and we ARE getting new shoes"

She nuzzled

"My shoes are ok, theres nothing wrong with them.. I have to pee"

He let her go

"Your getting new shoes, wanna argue and I can tell it to your tushy"

She slipped off the bed, wincing at her feet, they hurt oh so bad, but she really thought she didn't need new shoes, hers were still good

"But there ok.. I don't need new ones Lorne"

His brow raised, watching her

"Do I need my paddle, little girl?"

Finshing up in the bathroom, making sure to wash her hands, she came back out

" No, but Lorne, they are perfectly good shoes"

He gave her the LOOK, you know the one that says, oh boy your gonna be in trouble.. the look was lost on her, totally. She looked at him as she climbed back up on the bed.

"But they are, theres no holes and the laces are brand new.. not very dirty..don't waste money on new ones when the old ones are still ok..it'll take a little bit, but my feet will get used to them, just like my last pair"

She settled down by her pillows again, winceing as a bandaged toe got caught on the comforter and she pulled it out. Lorne Shook his head and gently pulled her over his lap and started spanking.

"Hey!.. Lorne!.. thats not fait!.. stopppOWWWWW!"

SPANK SPANK SPANK SPANK SPANK SPANK SPANK

"Do NOT tell me to stop little girl, you know better than to argue!"

SPANK SPANK SPANK SPANK SPANK SPANK SPANK

""OWWWWLORNE PLEASEEEEEEE!!"

She growled and kicked, trying to get her hands back to cover her very hot ass, but Lorne was faster and as she did, he grabbed her hands, pinning them down in the small of her back, never missing a spank..

SPANK SPANK SPANK SPANK SPANK SPANK SPANK

"You do NOT growl at me or put your hands back!, are you gonna behave little girl?"

Tangi sniffled, tears falling silently, and she nodded. Lorne stopped at that point and started rubbing her hot tushy.

"I love you, kitten"

Sniffling she wiped her eyes after he let her hands go.

"love you to even if your spanking me and its not fair"

He smiled, she sniffled again and he turned her so she was upright, in his lap and kissed her softly.

"you KNOW the rules, kitten"

She pouted, wiping her eyes and rubbing her bum.

"Don't like them"

The words , the way she said them, made her sound like a very little girl. His brow raised.

"Ok then.. we will stop, you do as you like"

She furrowed a brow

"kay?"

He nodded

"no more rules, you are on your own.. a freebird"

Again her brow furrowed, she was starting to panic.

"kay?"

She said it again, and again she was unsure of what was happening, bad thoughts started to run through her head. Setting her back down on the bed carefully, he kissed her softly and pulled the blankets up

"Night kitten"

She looked over at him for a moment while he turned the lights off, then moved to herside of the bed and curled around her pillow in a little ball.

"night"

She layed that way, for a long time, wide awake and hurting, not from her feet or her still hot bum, but from her heart, she knew deep down that it wasn't going to last, she just didn't want to believe it. Granted what he ment, and what she thought he ment were two different things and she had totally taken everything out of context.

Waiting untill she KNEW that he was asleep, and everyone else in the hotel was asleep, she quietly got up, got herself dressed into the clothes she had come to LA in and pulled her back pack on. Her shoes grabbed off the floor, she left the room and the hotel and headed out.. be on her own.. AGAIN.